Feeling guilty

As I’ve mentioned many times before, I’m in a good place right now (despite getting over a stomach bug today)

However, as well as getting over the bug, I’m also having a low day. I feel guilty for feeling low as I know everything is actually going great in my life at the moment.

I have days like this. I even feel guilty for having to take today off work. I had to, because I’m not well enough physically to be in, but still. I feel like I am letting others down – particularly my colleagues. But I had to listen to my body.

The good news is I’m feeling well enough to be able to go in tomorrow!

This lowness feeling used to happen a lot. Its less frequent now as I’m more happy in general. However there are occasional days where I feel like I can’t cope. Dark feelings and thoughts take over and I don’t know how to get rid of them. I’m scared to tell someone close to me just in case I scare them off. I don’t want them thinking I’m weak or miserable because that is so not me.

I know I’ve got a lot of support around me. I’ve got so many people to talk to. I just don’t know who to go to, and how to let them know what I’m thinking/feeling.

It’s a toughie. The main thing that’s getting me through this low spell is knowing that it won’t last as long as it used to and there will be light at the end of the tunnel! I’m hoping to start feeling brighter again in the next few days😊