Recently, I’ve had a low moment. I was thinking why me. Why have I had to go through what I’ve had to go through, mainly because of how it affects me now. I feel lost sometimes. I feel like I’m not sure what to say or do in certain situations. I’m not sure how to react. Sometimes I might overreact without thinking. Sometimes I might not react at all.
What I’ve got to realise is that I’m still learning “the ways of life” I suppose. I’m a bit late at learning it but it’s better late than never ay?
I think a lot of people assume I know things that other people in their early twenties know… But that’s not necessarily the case. I struggle with even the simplest of things sometimes. I make a lot of mistakes.
But like many have said to me, mistakes are how we learn – and I for sure am learning a lot!
One thing I worry about is the fact that I don’t know what I’m doing half the time. And I feel like at my age, I should know what I’m doing. But like a friend reminded me – do any of us know what we’re doing half the time? We’re all humans. We all make mistakes. We all get puzzled from time to time. We are all constantly learning.
So am I really that different to someone who hasn’t had the same past as I have had? No! I’m not. And I really should start realising that now.