Katie’s Condition

That’s what the doctors used to call it…

I’ve probably talked about this or similar in the past but I just feel like talking about it again because of an incident that occurred today.

So I went to the doctors to have my flu jab. I have had a flu jab every year for the last few years. Recently, my dad has started having it to because he is practically my carer (although I don’t like the term ‘carer’ in my case as I like to think I’m quite independent when it comes to my care.)

Anyway so.. This happened last year, and I believe it happened the year before that too. My dad received a letter from our doctors surgery inviting him to come down to have his yearly flu jab. I never received a letter. I didn’t last year, or the year before. But I still turn up as I know I’m entitled to it. I’m what they call “high risk” due to my condition and circumstances.

Anyway, today I turned up. I thought that the receptionist would say something along the lines of “you’re not on the list” when I went to book in as this has happened before.

However this time round she looked at her computer and asked me to take a seat. I thought “Brilliant! Finally on the list! πŸ˜‚”

So I waited for a bit. Then I got called in by the nurse. I walked into to the room with the nurse, noticing that she was giving me slightly curious/weird looks. I sat down in the chair provided right in front of her chair, with the computer sitting next to her.

She then continues looking at me in a slightly odd way before saying “Katie, can you tell me why you should have the flu jab. You’re not high risk or anything. Could you explain your condition?”.

Wow. Part of me felt like saying “just take a look at my notes”. Surely by looking at what I’ve been through is proof enough that I’m entitled to the flu jab.

I didn’t want to seem rude though so I went to explain my condition before hesitating for a few seconds whilst I thought “wait what is my condition?”.

There is no name for what I’ve got in general. So I gave a very brief outline of my life. I was born with my organs on the outside of my body (there is a name for that I know – exomphalos) , I’ve had complications throughout my life resulting in me having major stomach surgery, I now have a tube in my stomach etc etc.

That was luckily enough for her to agree I should have it and proceeded in giving me the vaccine.

I then walked out and went on about my day. Since that moment this morning though, I’ve been thinking. I feel like I’ve explained my story to so many people so many times. (I’m getting a little bit tired of it now not going to lie – maybe I should just show people my stomach when asked what my condition is…. Or better yet carry a sign with me at all times giving certain important factors of my life/condition. It will save a lot of time πŸ˜‚)

When people ask me what my condition is, I can’t just give them a one word, simple answer like someone who has asthma, or epilepsy for example. Conditions people know. I have to tell my life story. Or give the briefs of it anyway.

Well it’s either that or say the actual – made up – name of it… Katie’s Condition. Like the doctors at Kings used to call it.

Apparently there is no one like me. Well no one who has similar symptoms, consequences and surgeries all together. I find this a little annoying because I can’t give anyone straight answers and not everyone has time to sit and listen to me explaining my life story.

However I guess it makes me kind of unique. One of a kind you might say. As far as I know there’s no one else out there with “Katie’s condition” and maybe I should be kind of proud of that.

I’m living a life and it’s only just clicked

As you can see from my previous posts, I had a little bit of a downer. But I’ve learnt that it’s okay to have down moments. It’s okay to feel sad from time to time. It’s okay to not be okay.

Anyway… I’m feeling pretty positive now. I’ve been chilling this evening, watching TV and listening to music as per. I’ve also been thinking.

Lately, I’ve been doing a lot. I’ve achieved things that I doubted I would. I’ve taken risks that I was too scared to take previously.

And I’ve loved every minute.

For example, last week I went to London with my boyfriend to see Biffy Clyro. They were really good! We had standing tickets. Meaning we were close to the stage, but it meant we were standing at all times.

On the days, weeks even, leading up to this day I was kinda anxious. I was worried about the journey. We went by train. I have been on a train before but only to places I know well. Don’t get me wrong, I trusted my boyfriend and felt safe with him. But the worry was still there. It was kind of out of my comfort zone. I was also worried about standing for so long. I was worried my body wouldn’t take it. Whenever I’ve been to a concert, I’ve always had seated tickets so I can stand and sit as I please. But this time I took the risk.

And you know what….. I did it. I felt a bit tired and my legs were kinda achey but overall I didn’t feel as bad as I thought I would. And the journey there and back wasn’t so bad. It was an amazing experience all in all!

This weekend I’m planning on going to visit some friends up in London. It will be the first time I go up to London on the train on my own. However… I’m not actually that nervous. I’m excited about the whole thing!

Before the beginning of this year, I was certain that 2015 was the best year of my life to date! That year I had started to properly recover and there were loads of parties and events I attended. It was a fun year!

However now we’re coming to the end of 2019….. I’ve changed my mind.

I know we’ve still got a couple of months left of this year but honestly, so far this year – I have had the time of my life!!

I feel like I’m actually living a life. I’m being a 22 year old! And it’s all thanks to the people around me, new and not, who have released me from being “wrapped in cotton wool” and have allowed to live my life. Go out, meet new people, explore new places, learn new things, have fun!

I know for some close to me, it’s been hard letting me go. But what they, and i, have to learn is that physically I’m strong now. I have the odd day where I may feel weaker than usual, but generally I’m a pretty strong person! I’m able to go out, have a few drinks with friends, do driving lessons (probably not straight after a drinking session with friends thoughπŸ˜‚), go to concerts, stay up late and just enjoy life.

I’m happy thanks to those who have set me free and let me take risks. I don’t need to be protected anymore.

I am living my best life and it is brilliant! 😁