As you can see from my previous posts, I had a little bit of a downer. But I’ve learnt that it’s okay to have down moments. It’s okay to feel sad from time to time. It’s okay to not be okay.
Anyway… I’m feeling pretty positive now. I’ve been chilling this evening, watching TV and listening to music as per. I’ve also been thinking.
Lately, I’ve been doing a lot. I’ve achieved things that I doubted I would. I’ve taken risks that I was too scared to take previously.
And I’ve loved every minute.
For example, last week I went to London with my boyfriend to see Biffy Clyro. They were really good! We had standing tickets. Meaning we were close to the stage, but it meant we were standing at all times.
On the days, weeks even, leading up to this day I was kinda anxious. I was worried about the journey. We went by train. I have been on a train before but only to places I know well. Don’t get me wrong, I trusted my boyfriend and felt safe with him. But the worry was still there. It was kind of out of my comfort zone. I was also worried about standing for so long. I was worried my body wouldn’t take it. Whenever I’ve been to a concert, I’ve always had seated tickets so I can stand and sit as I please. But this time I took the risk.
And you know what….. I did it. I felt a bit tired and my legs were kinda achey but overall I didn’t feel as bad as I thought I would. And the journey there and back wasn’t so bad. It was an amazing experience all in all!
This weekend I’m planning on going to visit some friends up in London. It will be the first time I go up to London on the train on my own. However… I’m not actually that nervous. I’m excited about the whole thing!
Before the beginning of this year, I was certain that 2015 was the best year of my life to date! That year I had started to properly recover and there were loads of parties and events I attended. It was a fun year!
However now we’re coming to the end of 2019….. I’ve changed my mind.
I know we’ve still got a couple of months left of this year but honestly, so far this year – I have had the time of my life!!
I feel like I’m actually living a life. I’m being a 22 year old! And it’s all thanks to the people around me, new and not, who have released me from being “wrapped in cotton wool” and have allowed to live my life. Go out, meet new people, explore new places, learn new things, have fun!
I know for some close to me, it’s been hard letting me go. But what they, and i, have to learn is that physically I’m strong now. I have the odd day where I may feel weaker than usual, but generally I’m a pretty strong person! I’m able to go out, have a few drinks with friends, do driving lessons (probably not straight after a drinking session with friends though😂), go to concerts, stay up late and just enjoy life.
I’m happy thanks to those who have set me free and let me take risks. I don’t need to be protected anymore.
I am living my best life and it is brilliant! 😁
Katie's Journey 