I’ve been struggling recently.
I really don’t get it. I feel like I’ve been on such a high for so long. Everything seems to be working out. Any knock backs I’m getting, I get straight back up. I’ve been practically constantly feeling happy and content with life.
Recently though, I feel like I’ve been putting it on. Like I’ve been forcing myself to smile and be happy.
It’s a strange feeling. It’s like I want to be happy, I know I have all the reasons in the world to be happy. I’m finally leading a normal life – this is a big contributer to that!
Why, recently, do I feel like I’m pretending all the time?
Is it because its all getting too much?
Am I tired of all the trying and pushing myself I’ve done the past few years?
Am I struggling with normal/everyday tasks because I don’t feel like I deserve to live a normal life?
I don’t know. That’s my answer to all them questions. I don’t know.
Here I am admitting to everyone who I’ve lied to and said “I’m okay”.. I’m not. I’m tired. I’m struggling.
But I’m still going to try. The more I try the more real it seems. Trying is all I have done and can do❤️
Katie's Journey 