Realising my limits

Hello all!

Long time no blog😅

Sorry.. It’s been a bit manic recently. I had both my birthday and father’s day last week. So along with work, last week was pretty busy.

I am now 22 years of age. To be honest, I don’t know if this is just a thing that happens as you get older, but I wasn’t as excited about it as I used to be when a birthday was coming up. I just thought – here I am, another year older!

(and another year closer to 30 – jeeze I’m getting old)

Don’t get me wrong, I did enjoy my birthday. Everyone around me at work and home, made it as special as the could. I got loads of lovely gifts and had my favourite dinner – chilli con carne😋. I also went out with friends on Friday evening for a few drinks and food (I managed to get a tad tipsy😂)

It’s just.. The excitement Ive had previously just wasn’t there. Maybe its just the fact that I’ve grown up, I’m not a kid anymore. Well I haven’t been a kid for a while soo..

Anyway… What did I intend to do this blog about again? Oh yeah.. Realising my limits.

This is important to me. This is also something I struggle with occasionally. Now I’m more able-bodied, I’m not as sick as I once was, I’m more mobile etc.. I sometimes forget that despite me not feeling as bad as I used to, deep down I still have a condition that can affect my daily life.

I do have a habit of pushing myself too far sometimes. I forget that I’ve been through what I’ve been through. I do too much until I start making myself ill. I need to remember that me, my body, has limits. I need to understand that it’s okay to stop and take a breather. It’s okay to listen to my body. I need to look after myself as well as work hard.

I think, the fact that I’m now “free” to do whatever I want, I want to do as much as I can in life. And that’s fine. (its a great feeling knowing that I’m free!) However, I need to learn when to stop. When to just rest. And I am now slowly learning. I don’t get ill that often as I used to which is great!

Actually.. Talking about how free I am.. I’m now starting to really think about how I used to be. And it feels like a very distant memory. I question wether what I went through did actually happen.. Because Im not in that state anymore.

I’m in a better place. I’m healthy. I’m loving life. Yes, I have some restrictions.. But that’s easily managed. I’m quite fortunate to be in the state I am now as at one stage it didn’t look possible.

I’m sorry for rambling.. This blog post was mainly a post for me to just talk about anything that comes to mind as I go along.. And this time it was restrictions and comparison I suppose haha.

K x